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Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 01:20 pm Today is the day...
Current Mood: sadsad
today is that day where I switch my journal. The username is drwninhisdreams. Add it guys...
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Dec. 31st, 2004 @ 12:08 pm New Years Eve Survey..
Current Mood: accomplishedIm Done
Current Music: [Christina Aguilera] || [Cruz]
01. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I lost my virginity...hadnt done that before...dated someone, that was pretty cool.

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did actually. I dated someone and came out a bit...so yeah, I did.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
umm...Not that I remember, my cousin Alice did, but we arent super close or anything. Umm...Yeah, thats really it haha...

04. Did anyone close to you die?
Deaths... Umm, not that I can remember, when it comes to people dying I usually blur it out, not completely, but enough to where I dont remember when it happend.

05. What countries did you visit?

06. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Umm, that I lacked in 2004? Man, I would like to record, but more of my stuff, not covers../
07. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Shit, I dont remember the date, but graduation. That whole last week I will always remember. I have never cried more in my life, but yet been so happy either.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
My Biggest achievment was recording with Tiffani and graduating this year.

09. What was your biggest failure?
My biggest failure. Probably not keeping in contact with some friends, I wish I would have.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Illness, injury? not that I can remember, but if I did, you better believe that I would remember.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
The best thing that I bought. Definently my cell phone, that shit rawks!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Dont know...mine? haha

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Oh man, thats a tough one. Probably my mom when she said that my dad would kick me out of my house, that wasnt to cool.

14. Where did most of your money go?\

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seeing Jc Chasez in concert! oh man, remember guys!?

16. What songs will always remind you of 2004?
Toxic-Britney Spears
Since U Been Gone-Kelly Clarkson
Outrageous-Britney Spears
Tiltcha Head Back-Christina Aguilera
Cruz- Christina Aguilera
But the song that really sums up this year is probably going to be "My Boo" by Usher and Alicia Keys...dont know why..

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
I am definently happier.

ii. Thinner or fatter?

iii. Richer or poorer?
A little richer I guess...haha

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I would have been a little more honest with people this year...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
I wish I didnt over analyze things all the time...

20. How did you spend Christmas?
I spent christmas with the people that meant most to me, my family, Nicole and Jessicas family, and Erik. =)

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Yes I did...

23. How many one night stands?
oh God...like four?

24. What were your favourite TV programmes?
Will And Grace, Pimp My Ride, Real World, Road Rules...

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes I do!

26. What was the best book you read?
the best book I read was a Prayor for Owen Meany.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
From Justin To Kelly! haha...thats the only one that I saw this year that I didnt see lsat...haha

28. What did you want and get?
To fall in love...

29. What did you want and not get?
An I Pizzle Dizzle../ =(

30. What was your favourite film of this year?

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18 and that night I didnt do anything...not cool I guess...but when I got my ID I went out to the club and to Flesh, made friends with strippers, realized I really am gay...haha

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Make me comfortable and make me look less white and more latin...

34. What kept you sane?
Friends, and when they couldnt do it, family, and when they couldnt do it, music!

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Colin Farell...oh GOD!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The Presidential Election.

37. Who did you miss?
YOu know, I had this friend when I was like, six, and I thought about him a lot this year....his name was Sheldon Sawyer. He was a cool guy. Wish I know where he was.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Best new person, well its a toss up...I mean, I met, Ashely, Cliff, Erik, Mikki, Daniel, Tanja...I met so many people.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
It Gets hard but you have to keep on Keepin on.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Umm... "But Some How Ill Miss It, I Think Ill Really Miss It One Day" -Christina Aguilera.
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Dec. 30th, 2004 @ 06:24 pm is the new year upon us?
Current Mood: dorkydorky
Current Music: [Wesley Willis] || [I wupped Batmans Ass]
Well today is the second to the last year of the day. A lot has happend this year. I have made a lot of great friends, and lost a few along the way. I have expierienced a really bad low, but then a really big high. I had my first serious relationship and a pretty bad breakup. haha...Joe was stupid though, go figure right? But with all that aside, I had a lot of great feats, like coming out to my mom and to some family. Being more open about a lot of things, and just finding me. I liked this year, and I think I learned this year. It was a really good year for me. I think of all things this year though, Im most glad of the people I have found. I found a lot of great friends like I said earlier, but not only great friends, but almost a family in a way. They are there when I need them, and when I dont...haha...And they help support everyone. Sure we have our ups and downs, but what close family doesnt? So for this next year, I have only a few things I want to do.

1) I want to completely come out.
2) I want to travel more.
3) get rid of all the negative energy I can harbor.
4) And for the shallow part of me, lose ten more pounds and keep it off all year long...

Well guys, in case I dont post it tomorrow....HAPPY NEW YEARS!
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Dec. 29th, 2004 @ 03:48 pm another journal?
Okay, I think I might start another journal...Ive outgrown "xritualoftearsx"...I like the name, but I have grow out of it. I really like "He Drowns In His Dreams". Come the new year, I will start a new journal. The username is drwninhisdream. I guess I relate to it better. I mean, Im a day dreamer, and I day dream about things all the time, and I find myself being suffocated with dreams. I drown in them, make sense? haha...so yeah...add it
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Dec. 29th, 2004 @ 10:37 am by far the most fucked up conversation I have ever taken part in...
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Samantha Sudak...
Okay, I dont know who any of these people are...but Im ritual_of_tears...
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Dec. 29th, 2004 @ 10:18 am what does that mean? (Offline messages)
Current Mood: confusedconfused
rockingmulund (12/29/2004 6:40:39 AM): Duniya haseen chaand or sitarooo see hai, Hume muhabat ek se nahi hazarooo see hai
preityzi (12/28/2004 9:13:32 PM): khaali shishe bhi nishaan rakhte hai tute hue dil bhi armaan rakhte hai, jo khamoshi se guzar jaaye woh dariya bhi dil me toofan rakhte hai
rockingmulund (12/28/2004 6:36:01 AM): kal tanha raat mein aap ki yaad ayi tanhai mitane k liye hum ne cigrete jalai qayamat toh tab ayi jab cigrete ke dhua ne aap ki tasver banayi

preityzi (12/28/2004 6:28:32 AM): milakar najar se najar lunt lenge, ye bewafa jalve jigar lunt lenge, hasino par hargize bharosa mat karna, khuda ki kasam ghar ke ghar lunt lenge
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Dec. 25th, 2004 @ 04:57 pm merry christmas...
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: [Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas] || [Christna A.]
Well this was by far one of the best christmas's I have had in awhile. I have recieved everything that I wanted. Just to recount, heres what I got...

-A new stereo! THanks Jessica and Nicole!
-A white board! Thanks Melly!
-a sweet candle! Thanks Mikster and Danielster!
-Adidas moves and Adidas Adrenline! Thank you Mia and Charles!
-Cool waters Cologne and a toiletry case (sp?)! Thanks Ronnie and Michelle!
-Christina Aguilera 2005 calender!
-Cozzy Comfy PJS!
-A hookah! lol...SCORE A HOOKAH!
-A new wallet...plus some other shady stuff that I will get tomorrow....haha! Thanks Erik, I love you buddy!

Thats it...So all and all I had a good christmas...I wish the same for the rest of you guys on my friends list....Merry christmas guys!
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Dec. 22nd, 2004 @ 01:32 pm interesting...
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
(Do not try this at home. Maybe at work.)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
("Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes... lucky pig. can you imagine??)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump
(OK, so that would be a good thing....................)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains.
(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer.)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread the stupidity and send this to someone you want to bring a smile to (maybe even a chuckle)...in other words send it to everyone..
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Dec. 21st, 2004 @ 11:30 pm Erik...
Current Mood: lovedloved
I get to go see Erik tonight...Im so excited! Its weird, Ive never wanted to see him as bad as I do right now. Normally its like, I wonder what Erik is up to? I guess Ill call him. But tonight I want to see him. I want to fall asleep next to him and just know that hes there. I slept in my own bed, my own room...it just wasnt the same, it wasnt right. I think I need him there just lay on. Or just to hold me...sounds super Gay I know...But I cant help it, I really enjoy his company, and I really enjoy him...just him...nothing else, no gimmicks, just him....Thats all I want is just him...
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Dec. 21st, 2004 @ 01:32 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: relievedthis test thing is over!
Current Music: [Tsunami Bomb] || [Roundabout!]
Thirteen random things you like:
01) MUSIC!
02) Family
03) Friends
04) Erik
05) Eriks family
06) Eriks friends
08) Christina Aguilera
09) Kelly Clarkson
10) Ashanti
11) SEx
12) My computer
13) the cell phone...

Twelve random things you want:
01) a Scion
02) a gas card that doesnt run out!
03) To go to New York and visit Dianne on New Years
04) For my family to accept my way of life.
05) Ashanti-Concrete Rose
06) Motorolla Razor Phone
07) my own house with a house cleaner!
08) For everyone I love to live on the same block as me!
10) To be succesful in the music industry.
11) I want to lose 10 more pounds.
12) TO have more muscle tone, not a lot, but just like....pecs, and shoulders and biceps! ( I WOULD BE HOT!)...(admit it! haha)

Eleven good bands/artists:
02) Kelly Clarkson
03) Lindsay Lohan
04) Tom Waits
05) Jason mraz
06) Jem
07) Vanessa Carlton
08) Nina SKy
09) Sean Da Paul...
10) Franz Ferdinand
11) PULP!

Ten things about you ... physically:
01) Im 6 foot
02) size 12 in shoes
03) chubby
04) I have a scar from when my lip was pierced
05) my eye brow does this weird fan thing...haha
06) Im tan..all year...PROUD TO BE LATINO! lol
07) I always get a zit in the same place on my face! ugh.
08) I have a beauty mark on my lip. I think thats hot!
09) Im right handed...but I can work with my LEFT! lol
10) I am alright looking...

Nine thoughts:
01) "NIck Swardson is funny."
02) "IM hungry....dont eat though, just wait okay>?"
05) "I think I need to pee...nah, maybe later..."
07) "Im going to go rawk out in my room"
08) "Wait a second...Are people going to read this?"
09) "Man, Erik is calling, ignore it and call him when you are done, but wait, what if this thing takes longer then expected?"

Eight favorite foods/drinks:
01) Spaghetti
03) Pizza
04) Sprite
05) Humus
06) Doritos!
07) Briens cooking.
08) Madori sours...sp?

Seven things you wear daily:
01) Boxer briefs
02) two bracelets
03) shirts
04) pants
05) sandles or shoes
06) my cell phone.?
07) my hair.?

Six things that annoy you:
01) When you do something for someone that you think is nice but they do nothing but bitch about what you did for them.
02) When people lie straight to your face.
03) People who fall into the same cycles.
04) Eminem ...he makes me wanna go, HA HA HAAH AHA HHA and lose it, and after I do that I get a headache..what the fuck man?
05) When people cut in line.

Five things you touch everyday:
01) My hair
02) My butt to check for my wallet.
03) My penis.. hehehe
04) my cell phone, gotta make those calls..
05) Eriks lips.

Four shows you watch:
01) The Real World
02) Will and Grace
03) Roseanne
04) Sex and the city

Three People you have a crush on:(DONT HATE ME FOR THIS ERIK! HAHA)
01) Hookah guy-there is this guy at the hookah I see everytime I go, man hes hot...
02) Erik-Because hes Erik...duh
03) The drummer from Maroon 5...GOd hes hot, and undoubtly gay too, score!

Two things you hate:
01) When people dont like me...happens rarely but it happens, trust...
02) Being alone in the dark.

One thing you love:
01) Everyone who makes me feel special...(Thats pretty much everyone...haha)
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